Thursday, June 5, 2008
Strength
I went to a movie by myself for the first time ever this week. Everyone I knew had gone last week to see Sex and the City when it opened. I was at home sick so I missed out. I was dying to see the movie though and after watching the trailer on the computer for the 100th time I decided that no matter how much I didn't want to go by myself I just needed to go. So there I was sitting in the theatre laughing and crying at all of the same parts I am sure every person I know would have been sitting there laughing and crying at and feeling very alone.....but none the less I did it. As I walked out of the movie theatre I knew that if Carrie Bradshaw could live on her own and be fine for that many seasons on sex and the city before she got her fairy tale ending that I could do the same. I drove home and for the first time since I moved into my house on March 2nd I chose to stay at my house by myself, blast my music, clean and just enjoy being in my home. What an amazing feeling to be in a house that I own on my own and look around at the life I have made in such a short time. I never new I was so strong and now looking around I knew that the strength I had was permanent and there was nothing I couldn't deal with. I was ready to take on the world........ I knew right then that every decision I had made was for the right reason, that things happen for a reason, that I deserved greatness in my life, that I deserved happiness and that at that moment everything was right and I would get my fairy tale ending one day. I knew then and there that God had a plan for me and that up until this point my life was planned for one thing......Drew........my strength! I can't wait to see what God has planned for me next. I know whatever it is I now have the strength to deal with it!
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3 comments:
I am so proud of you!! I know it takes a lot of guts and strength to do anything by yourself. I know you were disappointed to miss seeing the movie with all of us, but maybe this all happened for a reason. Because you went to that movie alone, you were inspired to embrace being on your own. Now you know that you can do anything and you will be ok! Who knew you could get that much from Sex and the City?!
I've told you this 100 times thus far and will continue to do so...
You are, by far, one of the strongest women I have ever met and I admire you more than you know!
Love you to pieces girl!
-Mo
Interesting how we perceive ourselves versus how others perceive us.
Having lived with you as a child and teenager, seeing the skills that did not come easy, but that you achieved with perseverence and belief - - I agree with Mo - - you are one of the strongest women I know.
Sometimes we choose to challenge ourselves - sometimes life circumstances force the challenge. Whatever the impetus, challenges can be a great way to grow and feel good about ourselves - - because as you discovered, we can usually do more than we think we can - - and that always feels great!!
I love you!
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