Body Image

There is nothing worse than looking in the mirror and seeing how life has progressed with your body. For those of you few lucky ladies out there that still look like you did at 18........ lucky you you don't know what I am talking about.......but to the rest of you I know you understand. I put my bathing suit on this weekend and went to tie the top in the mirror and was forced to look at myself in the mirror. If only life experience and wisdom could be measured in strectch marks, cellulite and rolls......then everyone at the pool would know how experienced and wise I truely am. Unfortunately that is not how it works. After I accepted the fact that staring in the mirror at myself with a disapproving look was not going to melt the pounds away I put my bathing suit cover up on and headed out to the pool. While soaking up the sun and people watching (one of my favorite things to do) I noticed several woman that were significantly heavier than I was in their bikinis soaking up the sun and strutting around the pool just waiting to get noticed. That is when I started wondering.................why can't your self confidence grow as your waistline grows? If everything on your body got bigger not just your outer appearance then I could strut around like the other woman I was watching, and how was it that they didn't care and I did? Did they get some memo that I didn't stating that body image didn't matter anymore. For the most part I try to work out a couple times a week and I try to watch what I eat. I have lost weight but it always seems to be a vicious cycle. Gain a pound or two, get lazy, don't work out, get sad, eat more, get motivated lose a pound or two, get happy, gain a pound or two. is this the cycle I will go through for the rest of my life? When will people started loving themselves for the inside instead of the outside like everyone else that loves them does? Needless to say that I am sure even the thinnest of us struggles with body image from time to time. So here is my challenge to all of you that I know and love so much......next time you look in the mirror, i want you to see the beauty of your heart showing through the beauty of your skin! Once we all start seeing ourselves like that than we can strut around with the best of them!!!!!!